Proverbs 31 Series: Week 2

"Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value."

-proverbs 31:11

Wow. Wouldn't you want someone to say this about you?! I definitely would, but am I really someone my husband has full confidence it?

I have asked him if he has full confidence in me and he said yes! That's great, but the truth is, I didn't believe him... I think he is serious, but I don't always have full confidence in myself in certain ways. I thought about specific areas and times when I have let me husband down. I can remember multiple times when I was off for the day and he had to go to school and he asked me to call about a charge or a bill or something like that, that needed to be straightened out, and I said I would do it, but then I didn't. I could tell when he got home and I told him I didn't do what he asked, he lost confidence in me. I lost confidence in myself as a wife. I felt horrible each time. Not because he reacted in a way that made me feel horrible (he never did), but because I knew I wasn't being the partner that he needed and that I want to be. I knew I let him down. For me, the root of that is selfishness and laziness those are the sins that I struggle with the most and these are good reasons for my husband not to have full confidence in me.

Here are a few areas, I thought of that I need to be more intentional about:

1. Running the household (grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning)

2. Finances. Does my husband trust how I handle our money and that I wont splurge out of emotions.

3. Backing up my husbands decisions. I think this can be a big one, some times I notice Mark is hesitant to tell me about things and I know it is because of the way I tend to respond when I don't hear what I want.

4. Controlling my emotions. Not that I am this crazy woman, but sometimes my emotions get the best of me.

5. Managing my time. Sometimes I have the mindset that if I am not working its my time to relax and do whatever I want. I think down time can be important, but I need to be wise in how I spend my time. I like to procrastinate, but just because something can wait doesn't mean I should relax instead of doing it.

Proverbs 14:1 says

"The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down."

I think it is important to intentionally build my house. I am sure the foolish woman isn't intentional about tearing hers down, it just happens if you aren't working on building it.

Hope this helped in some way. See ya next week!